wow... life... can be so interesting... and it will teach you to trust god... really really fast.. cause if i did not i would... have faded out long ago...
ok ill clue you in to what has made my life so freaking interesting .. it started with moving in .... on the second of this month .. (which was also my birthday... turned twenty one..) dealing with that... working out the kinks between me and my room mate.. three freakin days after we move in ... i totaled my car... and that so should have been the first sigh of a month from .... well one that would test every fiber of my being.. though... it also screemed... trust your god... he has a plan for you ... and ... you ... will fullfill it anyhow.. you dont have a choice... cause.. i locked my brakes and skided in to a barrier on a exit thirty feet in the air... and i should have rolled over it.. or fliped over it.. ither way i would have fallen thirty feet on to a busy highway... yet.... one minute i was headed towards it.. the next... i had bounced of ... what seemed like a impenetrable wall of guardian angels and had skidded to a stop.. down the exit ( the marks are over two hundred fifty yards long... ) so instead of .. sure death... i walked away with out a scratch and that ... was the first of many .... amazing .. and humbling experiences.. the next day i spent... just... hanging downtown .. dazed... ended up skating ... ( blading ) nine plus miles.. with .. the girl i'm now dating... ( yes you read that right... dating.. i actually some how managed... to find the girl of my dreams.. and ... get her attention... ) oh by the way were still in week one.. this was the seventh.... i figured out i .. we .. really liked each other then next night... at a party... sunday... um.. sunday... was a wirlwind... monday i went back to work ( i took friday off.. cause i did not have a car... and i had the weekend off... ) was kinda uneventful... found a car... and stuff.. i now drive a 93 topaz... it is a beater... but its in decent shape.. and it not being a new car is teaching me a thing or two about humility.. and trusting god.. to provide ... and just... living with what i have... and not wanting .. better.... sigh .. and ... dating... her.. is teaching.. me .. to lead.. fast.... and putting the fear of god in to me.. and it should.. i can not take this lightly... the fear keeps me sharp... the prayer keeps me learning.. and walking in his footsteps... so she can follow mine... and see him... yah i am takign this seriously... but shouldn't I? wherever  this relationship goes.. well thats it for this update... ttyl
cyper out

two things that have been on my mind for some time now...

1. ( this is kinda for you bri.. cause your little post about college on myspace is what got me thinking about it. so its about me... but i credit you for starting the thought... hehe..  ) why do we worry about fitting in and being cool.... does god not call us to stand out and be different so that people have a beacon to guide towards? i don't mean like messy or ... do weird stuff to get noticed.. just not worry about being cool... or with the crowd...

2. Do i pray to God and thank him for the good and awesome times enough .. do I praise him for the joy and happiness in my life enough... I'm not saying i don't sometimes... but as our creator should i not be praising him every second of the day... for the awesome times he gives me in my life.. for the fact that he knows me so intimatly.. that he knows when i cant take anymore... hurt or grief or anger... and so he gives me something ... so awesome that i cant not stop and drink it in ... and just go ... "wow"..... and be at peace...

ok i just realized i have no way to finish this post.. i usually end with a joke.. but I'm not going to disrespect a post like this with a stupid joke.. so i think.. i will.. just... leave it... open ended...
night all ... oop's just realized.. its morning.. good morning all